It's a Friday night but unlike many other Friday nights, today will be the last Friday before I start my full-time job and I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am to start this new chapter of my life. Following graduation, I was completely exhausted from packing on my schedule left and right. Two internships, five upper division courses, Greek life, etc. I wanted to do it all and that's exactly what I did. I did it all and I spread myself too thin. Was it worth it? Absolutely. Looking back and reflecting on everything now, I wouldn't have changed my decision for the world. I learned how to multi-task, I am able to work under tight deadlines, and more than anything, I found that fire that kept me going...day in and day out, but things weren't always easy for me. My parents and relatives were constantly asking me questions about my future. "When are you going to get a boyfriend?" "What are you going to be doing now?" "What's next?" Questions after questions. While I have tried many times to avoid giving them bullshit answers, I couldn't help but to settle for a mediocre response. "Just wait. You will see." If you can't already tell, the problem is quite clear. I had no answers. To me, not knowing was perfectly normal. As for my parents? Well, it drove them nuts.
For the past couple of months, I've been living under a microscope. Although my mother tries to alleviate my stress by sending me your average 9-5 office job listings, I was constantly searching for more. The more I did my research, the more patience and confidence I started to gain. I knew that at the end of the day, my time will come so while I don't have full control over timing, I could still enjoy the "Started-at-the-bottom" ride while I still can. Due to this fuck it mentality, I ended up doing a lot of recreational things. I traveled. I partied. I explored new places. I read (a lot). I dated. To sum it all up, I had a lot of fun. Someone really special entered my life (Danny) while other friendships began to dissipate. While I'm sad that some bonds aren't as strong as it was before, I'm also lucky to know that I still have some pretty amazing people who will always stay by my side.
These months have taught me so much about myself, my desires, my interests, and my dislikes. They opened up my eyes to venturing out and trying things that I may not have had the courage to try and for once, I am so so fucking excited. I have mentally, physically, emotionally prepared myself for this new opportunity and I'm going to do what I've always done in the past. I'm going to run with it and see where it goes.
Before I end this post, I just wanted to thank you for following my journey and for being a part of it. You have made more than an impact on me and because of that, I'm forever grateful. Take care and I'll be back on this blog soon!
As always, Fight On!