Although I've dreaded it in the past, I'm living that 9 to 5 lifestyle in a sense that I set my alarm to wake up at the same time every morning. On a good day, I would leave work at the same time every evening. Somehow, I've managed to still be able to stay connected with my friends, go to the gym, eat dinner with my parents, and be in bed by 11:30 PM. I don't know how it is for other people, but I absolutely love routine. Jonathan describes my life as this.
Wake up, eat cereal or oatmeal drink tea, go to work, eat some greens for lunch aka nothing, get off work , go gym, go home, shower and eat greens aka nothing and drink smoothie
I know it seems like he's teasing me in regards to my diet and all, but he's pretty much spot on. I'm as predictable as you can get, but that's not to say I live today in order to repeat my yesterdays. In fact, every day is different. I feel challenged at work. I feel inspired by my daily reads. I feel blessed for my health, my friendships, my family, and their well being. All in all, every day feels brand new and I love it.
This journey of self discovery sure does have its fair share of struggles. Recently, I've ended a six year friendship with a person I sworn I would have taken a bullet for. It wasn't an easy decision on either ends, but we both knew that it was only a matter of time before we had to go our separate ways. We were just too incompatible. As I mentioned in my previous post, goodbyes are never easy but sometimes, they're necessary. By leaving the bad things behind, we are allowing ourselves to put our happiness on the frontline even if it means walking away from a person whose number you'd call on a daily basis. The heart-wrenching lesson I've learned during this recovery period is that you and I can never get to choose who stays in our lives. The only people we have full control over is ourselves, so let's all make a conscious effort to do things and be with people who actually makes us happy.
The other great thing about being so occupied these days is that it leaves me zero room to ponder about intimacy or romantic relationships. In fact, this is the first time I've thought about it in months. No man has asked me out on a single date. I had long forgotten what it feels like to have butterflies in my stomach. The idea of having a crush on someone seems completely foreign to me. However, with all of the negatives comes the positive. Being single, over the course of 3 going on 4 years, has enabled me to see people for who they truly are. The great looks amazing and the bad...well, they just look really bad. Instead of pursuing instant gratifications, as I would like to call them, I am now channeling all my energy in my readings, my workouts, and my job. I desperately want to be great, but greatness (like most things) takes time and lucky for me, I have no one to distract/derail me from my ultimate goal.
It feels so nice to write again, guys. I love writing and being away from this blog for so long has left me feeling extremely deprived. Going to start my Korean drama now. I hope you are all doing well. Until next time!