Hi, everyone! I know it has been awhile, but I thought I'd give you some updates on my life and what I've been up to for the past couple of months or so. As you may guess it (from the title), I have a boyfriend now! Wow, I didn't see that coming if that's what you're thinking. I honestly wasn't expecting to step into a relationship until another 3+ years or so. The last time I had my GF shoes on, I was still young and insecure. I undoubtedly lacked the confidence to maintain and sustain a healthy relationship for one obvious reason---I had no idea who or what I am. It's tough enough trying to discover our identities at this age. Now try piling on 30 academic units, a long distance relationship, and Asian parent's expectations. Phew. I don't even know how I managed to do what I did, but after so many years of being by myself, I've finally mastered the art of kicking ass and loving myself unconditionally.
So once again, I've decided to take that giant leap of faith. As cliche as it may sound, I've never been happier. I'm happy in a sense that I've met someone who is extremely respectful and considerate of my time. At the same time, we're so similar to each other that I'm pretty much dating the guy-version of myself. Does that sound weird? Haha. Maybe, but I like it. If there's one person I can put up with for an extended amount of time it's me. (Insert laughing emoji) In this case, I'm just dating someone who is perhaps buffer and way more OCD than I am (I think, it's still debatable). Either way, I feel very fortunate. However great my life was before, now it's even better and more exciting.
Aside from that, work has been stressful. I try to leave everything in the office once I lock the doors up and leave. I also don't want to complain because while things could be better, it could also be worse. Health-wise, I've been losing weight. Six pounds if you want to be exact. My workout routine has been the same. I know I'm stronger but I couldn't help but notice how frail my frame is. I went from a size 4 to a size 00 in just a few months time. I'm still working on it, I swear.
My absence from this blog is a result from my running away from all of my problems. My time has been divided between my need to do the right thing (aka grown up stuff) and my desire to give zero fucks (aka nightswim in Las Vegas with Zedd). Jokes aside, we all know that if there's anything I love, it's writing.
Life (so far) hasn't been writing-worthy. In a nutshell, I had to cope with losing best friends, averaging about 5 to 6 hours of sleep a night, and dealing with the fact that I may or may not be feeling complacent. I'm still trying to figure it all out and once I do, I would be more than glad to share it with you. For now, I'll let you know that while I've been experiencing more downs than ups, I've welcomed something new into my life and that something new has been the biggest blessing.
If you're reading this, I hope you know that I appreciate you for wanting to even read about my life. After all, I've been gone for quite some time. I'll try to do better, I promise!
Until then, take care :*