Never Forget

"We don't remember a time before 9/11...because just like that *snaps finger* everything changed." tumblr_nbqkkwdtV21rsadwno4_1280

These were the words from one of the guest lecturers I had at USC Annenberg and it's still stuck with me to this day. It reminded me that anything is possible. Anything can happen. Sometimes for the better, but other times, it's something so tragic that we (as a nation) will never be whole again. We're changed because of it. Everything changed. Everyone is affected in one form or the other.

Lately, I've been extremely moody. I've been feelings things I shouldn't be feeling. Mostly frustration. Sometimes that frustration turns into anger. Either way, I don't feel like myself. I found a companion in music, alcohol, and of course, good friends. As I continue to self-reflect on my recent behavior and thoughts, I began to realize that I'm slowly disliking the person I've become. Short-tempered. Impatient. Negative. In a way, I feel like I've been pulled down from Cloud 9 and dragged back to living the reality that is Earth.

However, it is days like these that remind me just how beautiful and grand life really is. I read this amazing quote on Instagram that I would like to share with all of you:

If we remembered everyday that we could lose someone at any moment, we would love them more fiercely and freely, and without fear-not because there is nothing to lose, but because everything can always be lost

With an overwhelming number of people trying to enter my life as of late, I began to question what has happened to me and why I'm so desensitized. Instead of making decisions based on both my logic and my heart, I have chosen to completely ignore the latter. I think it's important for me to take a step back and look at everything in retrospect in order to realize just how bless I really am.